mistake or wrong?

saya buat silap, tapi saya tak salah.

aku rasa mcm itulah yang tgh aku lalui skrang nie. kepala otak aku tgh berserabut dan berselirat mangalahkan C programming punya command. aku tak dapat cari mana pangkal masalah n apatah tadi penghujung masalah nie.

kalo aku pergi as define as tarik diri..is it in category larikan diri dari masalah? mess up my mind again!!!

sampai tahap sekarang nie aku rasa I make a mistake by accepting QC as my first job..is it just a mistake or is it wrong since from the beginning?

kena marah, kena tegur, is not a big deal for me. 3 tahun aku kat uni aku di didik di bwh sistem Dr Andika "Welcome to hell". jadi bukan itu masalahnyer untuk aku. kena soal dan di persoalkan, kena tanya dalam meeting semua tue, also not a big deal. kalo tak takkan member2 kat uni cmua take their hat off to me bila masuk bab Q&A during every presentation.

so, what is not at its place right now?

it is "dia"? "dia" do this, "dia" do that, am I not doing anything?
I am learning, but I didn't find any hole to get in..to create wonders...am I?

ahhhh!!!!...stuck, jam, hold..error in command...mistake or wrong?...